Veil

I really despise people who disguise as one who is nice, friendly, so called close to everyone. You might think you are putting on a great show. In fact, not everyone is blind. You are just acting and we are just the audience. Looking at you making fun of yourself. Or maybe i shall reciprocate by giving you an applause, or maybe co-act your scene. 

Those fake gestures, i should say it's really nice of you to put in those effort to constantly keep up with your performance. I was once deceived by that smile, but not anymore. 

You've lost my trust, sincerely.

Goodbye.

Back In SG

Flew back to SG on 24th morning. 

I thought i would be able to study for terms here, I'm wrong. Have been missing home so badly instead.

Have never been missing home so badly for the past few months, except for the time i just came. I hate having this feeling in myself. It really brings me down, tears me down whenever I'm trying hard to bring myself up. The feeling when you feel like the only thing you need is home, being home is the warmest thing ever. Haven't been feeling mom beside me for such a long time. The thought of moments with my family never fail to leave a smile on my face, followed by the strong urge to run for home right away. 

I thought that talking to mom on the phone would alleviate the pain, but it doesn't. It just got worse. Chatting with friends? Perhaps yes. Perhaps no. I don't know. 

Ps. Thanks for being there :)

Yours Sincerely, 

home is where my heart is. 

New Born

Day 21 at Singapore.

Well, since this is the very first blog post after coming to Sg, i'll basically share the very first experience(s) i had here. 

On the third, which is the day i'm supposed to report to the boarding school, we took a cab from the hotel in Orchard to ACS(I). When i just got there, my inner self instantly told me that this is the place you're going to stay for two years. No one was there when i just arrived. Took about an hour to finally get hold of the Vice-Principal. Thanks to that Malaysian senior for helping me! 

The hall mistress was so nice that she allowed my roommate and I to stay out for that night :D 

Had to attend a MOE orientation programme at Anderson JC on the next day. They brought us to tour around Ang Mo Kio. It was quite fun. Met my parents at the boarding school after that, which is the time i had to say goodbye. Being quite a sentimental person, saying goodbye is never easy. Guys picture the emotional moment when we walked away in diff directions *drama scene* lol. Well, this is how i started my JC life. Hahah. 

To be honest, I didn't really enjoy the orientation at acjc on the first two days. The programmes was fun but i just couldn't feel it. Eventually, after so many bonding games, we found our peers lol. On the last day of orientation, every group has their own free time so we went for bowling. Orientation night afterwards was a blast! I can feel the AC spirit!

Stayed on with my OG until we get into our class. Just met my classmates a few days ago 1SA1. The class teacher Mrs. Soong was infamous in ac. Apparently she is the second most powerful lady after the Principle. I can feel her power radiating hahaha. 

Have too much to share. Will share about life in bs in the next post :) 

Love, 

Shawby  ;)

Counting Down

So the days are drawing nearer.

Frankly, the only thing i'm really looking forward to is the ECA at Singapore! Checked it on their website and i found out some really new clubs that we don't have in Malaysia, well at least my current school, for example the Harp ensemble.

Orientation day is on 3rd of February.
Wonder who would be my roommate and which nationality she would be.

Wonder how much would i miss home, apart missing my parents more.
Wonder how would studying over there would be.

Wonder if i would be able to cope with the syllabus.
Wonder if i would fit in perfectly.

There are too many uncertainties, awaiting for me to reveal.

Luckily i'm not taking a flight there alone, but sometimes i wish i had. At least i don't have to wave my parents goodbye at the boarding school, knowing i would not be able to see them anytime soon.

Anyway, i just have to face all these one day, sooner or later, so let's just brave it out! :D


School today was err average.
The first thing i saw when i stepped into the class in the morning was Yao Sheng sweeping the floor! Seeing someone doing their duty so early in the morning and yet a guy doing it this is totally freaking me out. Anyway that was cool. ;) 看来今年的体育股长都对卫生股挺有兴趣的嘛，想窜位？:P

Managed to find out what did Bing Sheng do after school yesterday. I was dumbfounded knowing that he actually swept THE ENTIRE CLASS and arranged the tables. :O hahha 这里有个人珍惜你放学后做的东西 ;) Thanks yo best cleaner of the year given out by the mighty me. :P

hahhaha 谢谢你们对卫生股的关照 :3

The Story Never Ends

Leaving for Singapore on 2nd of February.

As for those who doesn't know, i'm going to attend college at Singapore. Was awarded the ASEAN Scholarship. Although i'm still not notified about which school/JC i'm posted to, I can roughly guess which school i'm going from my hostel posting. However, i'm not sure if i'll get an IB school or A-levels JC (since i heard it's really rare for MOE to post Pre-U scholars to IB schools).

Part of me hopes it's IB part of me doesn't. Pros of IB: Get to take more subjects and both humanities and science subj are required. Hence will be more all-rounded. Cons of IB: Time consuming, tougher than A-levels(since there are more subjs).

A-levels at Singapore JCs are different from those in Malaysia. A'levels at singapore differs from Malaysia's as in their A-levels has been coordinated with Singapore syllabus.

Anyway I was posted to Anglo-Chinese (Independent) Boarding School.
Yes, it's an independent school again. I thought i am going to get a school like Chong Hwa, instead i was totally wrong! Googled about AC(I) Boarding School. Well, i'm quite satisfied with the facilities offered to boarders especially the sporting facilities including the Olympic-sized swimming pool, gym, rock-climbing, squash courts, tennis, rugby pitch, 400m running track etc. It means that i don't have to give up the sports i'm doing over here at the clubhouse. :D

Post-SPM

Have been slacking all the time after spm. 
Anyway i found this randomly on twitter, 
"Procrastinating is a trait of a perfectionist.Putting off task out of fear that it won't be good enough once completed."
So imma perfectionist? ;) Just makes me feel better for letting time drifts off just like that. Haha.

Got to attend leadership camp from 16th-19th, 4 freaking days. Still contemplating whether to go or not to. But do i still have the choice? D: I can't bear the 3 minutes bath it's like bathing in your own sweat.

Went to Kukup with the class. After i'm back, everyone kept showering me with questions like "How's Kukup?" "Is it interesting?" "where to visit?" First thought, MANGROVE SWAMP! But i realise how lame it is. So i decided to tell them we went to tanjung piai which is the southern most tip of Malaysia, which sounds not as lame *i hope* For some reason when i said Kukup, two of my lil' cousin bros laughed out loud. Don't ask me why. :3

Have been hanging out too frequently. Hope i don't go beyond mom's limits. I need to learn to drive!

还是很怕那一天的到来

Lifeless

Humans have been nagging on me to blog here you go.

Regarding to my post abt my heart problems, it's not exactly about lack of exercise or too much stress. A lady even asked me if i'm active in sports when i was doing my ECG since my normal heartbeat is relatively low.
According to the cardiologist, i've got an extra heart capillary between the SA node and the AV node (yes it's what we've studied in bio), which sometimes causes a short circuit between the capillaries hence palpitation occurs.
I can really feel my heart pumping without feeling with my palm. It causes fatigue and uneasiness. Not sure if a surgery is needed so see how it goes when i see the doc next time.
 No worries friends out there! I understand you guys are just concerned about it :)


Yeay holiday until october! Heh. Have a little timeout.


Gonna blog abt my birthday which was years ago but i still owe the awesome people who celebrated for me a blog post!