Post-SPM

Have been slacking all the time after spm. 
Anyway i found this randomly on twitter, 
"Procrastinating is a trait of a perfectionist.Putting off task out of fear that it won't be good enough once completed."
So imma perfectionist? ;) Just makes me feel better for letting time drifts off just like that. Haha.

Got to attend leadership camp from 16th-19th, 4 freaking days. Still contemplating whether to go or not to. But do i still have the choice? D: I can't bear the 3 minutes bath it's like bathing in your own sweat.

Went to Kukup with the class. After i'm back, everyone kept showering me with questions like "How's Kukup?" "Is it interesting?" "where to visit?" First thought, MANGROVE SWAMP! But i realise how lame it is. So i decided to tell them we went to tanjung piai which is the southern most tip of Malaysia, which sounds not as lame *i hope* For some reason when i said Kukup, two of my lil' cousin bros laughed out loud. Don't ask me why. :3

Have been hanging out too frequently. Hope i don't go beyond mom's limits. I need to learn to drive!

还是很怕那一天的到来

Lifeless

Humans have been nagging on me to blog here you go.

Regarding to my post abt my heart problems, it's not exactly about lack of exercise or too much stress. A lady even asked me if i'm active in sports when i was doing my ECG since my normal heartbeat is relatively low.
According to the cardiologist, i've got an extra heart capillary between the SA node and the AV node (yes it's what we've studied in bio), which sometimes causes a short circuit between the capillaries hence palpitation occurs.
I can really feel my heart pumping without feeling with my palm. It causes fatigue and uneasiness. Not sure if a surgery is needed so see how it goes when i see the doc next time.
 No worries friends out there! I understand you guys are just concerned about it :)


Yeay holiday until october! Heh. Have a little timeout.


Gonna blog abt my birthday which was years ago but i still owe the awesome people who celebrated for me a blog post!

Last

Saturday was last day of exams. As usual we must hang out on the last day of exam. So went to the Gardens with the class.
There's only 4 girls kai min, rui qi, shi ling and me with a huge huge bunch of guys. I wonder where are all the girls!
The girls suggested we should take a cab there but the guys insisted on taking bus and ktm. Urgh it's actually almost the same price while taxi saves lots of trouble!
We ended up like this:

Walking along the highway.

I thought i was going to die. We gotto cross the road and literally get over the divider (which is abt knee high) to get to the ktm station. It was so damn dangerous. We looked like a bunch of teenagers playing truant. After a hectic 2 hours, finally we're there!
Had fun with them walking all round the place until i can't feel my legs anymore.
A clothes brand "superdry" is opening at midvalley, i don't really care. One thing esp for those 5szhong peeps, who can you think of from the word "superdry" ?

Persenting our mighty drycleaner Jeremy aka MIMI! hahahha.

Next,

 Photo taken after a run at 广东义山cemetery during April if i've not mistaken.

Taken during this outing.

Basically that's all for that day. Till the next hang out. Sadly, there's no more finals in my high school life, i gonna miss it D: At least i got to have fun on my last official finals :')

Till then.

Mid Autumn Festival

Don't get fooled by the title. I'm not really blogging about it hah.

Went to Subangjaya Medical to consult a cardiologist today. Had a palpitation two days before trials so went to a clinic immediately for ECG. My heartbeat was 160/min which is more than double the heartbeat of a normal person. Mom wanted to send me to parkcity medical immediately but there's no cardiologist there they only have on weekends -.- okay so we just ignored it until ytd when i was having lunch with wenhui i had chest pain. At night during dinner, the same prob again. Believe me, i thought i was gonna die. We didn't actually took this matter seriously before cos dad's cousin which is a doctor says it's pretty normal.

Throughout the trials i pray that i will not have palpitation every single day cos i can't actually study when it's happening. It's really tiring and uncomfortable. It seems worse day by day, i finally went today.

You know what, the cardiologist was so sexy hahhaha. I didn't expect it. But of course pretty things worth it's value, cost me 800bucks for her consultation. Just merely two hours and my 800 bucks is gone. -.- Somemore i gotto get touch all over. hmm shouldn't have done this stupid stuff rite.


And i gotto see her again two weeks later, suck my blood then. :/


Till then.

An unexpected text sent me into deep thoughts.
I was really shock but followed by bliss.
After further consideration, i suddenly thought it is a matter now.
I'm not sure if i can make this.
I'm not sure if i can just let it down.

Let's see how.


Oh and cousin sis asked me to go to Aussie with her and cousin bro. Sounds cool. Don't think it will eventually come true. Parents will be like you're too young. Just have some crappy dream. ahhaah.

Teacher's Day

Went to Shi Min's hse to bake muffins and make jelly for teacher's day. It was fun, although i ended up reaching home at 10.30 which means i literally got killed. Had some fun there and we took some photos around the playground hahahah. #Childhood
Mimi's little sister is soo cute. She has curly curly hair hahhaha. But then she kept asking me to shut up :( ahhaha.

Teachers' Day was okay. I think i was enjoyable for the teachers but not really that high and superb. The whole class didn't get together like nobody's business. Made many ppl eat the jelly cos we made too much. Including Zhengsi that complained at her blog ahahaha you didnt eat that much though :P Mimi's way of eating jelly is gross, ewww. Wei Liang invented a new way of eating and he said he was bloated lol.

Class photo is lovely. :) Miao.

Love.

Think twice

Don't always look at the surface of the water, try looking under.
There's always sweat,  tears, hardwork behind the scene.

You'll never know how sharp is your weapon, until you really feel it on your own.
Apologies doesn't always put things right.
There's always scars left behind.

Think twice.

You'll never know what is left after a tornado.
It may be horrendous.

Nobody's chosen it.
It's God's arrangement.

Heart

It's the last chance, last year. I really hope to, but what if i spoilt the whole thing? I dont know. Maybe i need some courage. Maybe i just think too much about others' opinion. 

For one thing, i won't give up, not until i get an affirmation. Maybe it's because, it's been too long in my heart, buried. Kick till i reach the other side, hit and it's time to stop. 

Thinking of leaving, but there's too much behind. Here. Alright let's see how. 

Maybe you don't even give a shit, but i'll just take it as an unsent text. Deep down here it pricks.  

Maybe this is what God's giving me, He needs me to endure. 

END of PARADISE

School reopens tmr. I can only think of one word. BORING.

Being lazy lately, don't feel like fbing tweeting or any social networks. Not socialising haha. Being a couch potato and then read novels. This is what i have never been doing for 17 years ahhaha. Sounds great?

Okay so much to blog about but dont know where to start with. Lazy to put them into words.

Got to buck up.

So today was alright. Got that new thing ahhaha. Finally. Yellow jellow moay.
Anyway it seems nice to be commented in that way. Let's hope hope. I thought it was fine. At least better?

Bye off for loads of hw. Last minute job again like always. Eeeesh.

Singapore

Visited singapore this holiday. 

Mom forgot to bring her luggage along. She realised it when we were already half way to singapore. LOL. Maybe she just wants to shop more in spore? hahhaha. So i ended up going without my toothbrushh! WTH. Got a lousy toothbrush there but it costs me 10 bucks damn. So hard,  my gum bleed everytime i brush my teeth wth. 

Saw so many ah kuas along orchard. With that superb body and too lady-like expressions. Ahahha. 

Second thing, mom's friend working as an expatriate in spore came to my house while we're at spore -.- Such a coincidence. He texted mom when he's at our door lololol. 

Saw a girl in spore, her hair colour is so nice. Her highlight. Ohhh. Btw, my hair colour really faded. Oh shit. But that charcoal black's not good either. 

Visited Universal studio again and some other places as well. I seems to be more used to taking SMRT than Msia's trains -.- 

Guess that's all, camp's coming up in two days. BUSY. 

Courage

Just read yeeting's blog post about "20seconds of courage" (seems that it's from sisi's blog)

Yeah this is really true. It really takes 20 secs or less than that.

If it wasn't the quote"Always Be Confident" that i wrote on my notebook, i won't take the move and i won't be on stage infront of 400 people. It's really scary i swear. Although i didn't really do a perfect job but still, it's my first time doing this and on top of that, it's a big thing. I was really nervous and mom's down thr seeing me :/ I never regret going on stage and whenever i think about it now, it always leaves a smile on my face :)

It was the first time stepping my foot forward, it's a real big step.


I really hope i can achieve that, although it seems impossible for now. But there's miracle right?

'Believe in your dreams, and live it out. '

Mid term's over but the nightmare's here.

RESULTS! I didn't really cared much about my results last time. Maybe it's SPM year and peer pressure coming in, i started to care more. lol. 

Frustrating fact, i failed to maintain my grades :( Urgh whatever. 

It's been more than a week away and now i'm back. Quite exhausting at first. Started breaking my records, 16 today. :DD Still slow though. 

Just found out that a friend's friend of mine is the girl who witnessed her mother's death while jungle trekking. It was really traumatic. Felt so sorry for her. Losing a mother during teenage years is really excruciating. I can't imagine, i might cry till i die or whatever. The pain. Pray for her loss. :( Actually heard this incident from mom's friend whose husband is in the Hash running society a couple of weeks ago. 

I'm really in a bad temper since ytd.I don't know why. One thing im sure, it's not PMS haha. Or maybe SPM  in the other way hahha. LOL. I'm really sorry if i shouted at you or whatsoever, i really didn't mean that, i just couldn't control, too much stress coming in. Sorry :( I hope that i can get this over soon. Maybe a break this holiday overseas will help. :) I'm really sorry for that. I'm not perfect, i'm always too straight and not thinking twice before i speak, sorry.

Currently busy with holiday's camp. Alright bye. :) 

Mid Year.

Oh it's mid term week. Hell.

This week is no life.

Wish me luck in my test!

Determination is what i need now!

My grades have been dropping since this year. Noooo!

#Buck up!

$%^&*

Can you don't expect others to do a perfect job when you yourself didn't? Didn't even give me an exact thing and keep asking me to give you those reports. After i gave it to you then you will start changing the whole thing. Wtf. Don't ask me then. Can you just tell us what have you done? You are not even clear and how do you expect us to be.

Some of the things should be done by you guys but instead keep asking others how. Can you guys just do smth. wth.

I didn't mean that i did it well, just that, you guys weren't too.

May Day

It's labour day today.
Nothing special boring.


Stayed back after school to choreograph our camp's dance ytd. Okay yes i'm dancing lol. -.- So not gonna happen hahha. So that girl told me that she's probably not coming for camp, oh hell im killing you literally.
Promise you get a huge present for me, you owe me that don't ya? *yes i know you will be looking at this hahah* Little baby's dancing is quite cute i have to say.

I'm really tired with you guys. Can you just show me even a little of your heart? At least put some effort in. Those who have ideas are irresponsible, while those who are not so active are responsible. Okay i'll have the latter.

Kept raining in the evening these days. No fun.


Exam is round the corner but i still have many little things not done. Can i dieeee?

English Choir Inter-class Competition

It's choir competition today.
We didn't sing well, it was like omg bad i think.
Too much problems in our choir.
Vocally, technically.

The friggin thing ever, WE EXCEEDED 5 MINUTES!! Oh hell we can die.

And i actually looked at laocai's dad when i was on stage. hahahha. He was err i don't know lol.

Okay, although we lost, but still, at least we tried HARD i think :/

Just get over this, feel sorry for those who put so much effort in this, sorry that we wasn't really good.

Sunday

Sunday is always a busy day since i-don't-know-when.

Church service in the morning.

Ends about noon and in the afternoon i have to choose between staying in for homework and tests or shopping. It always make me feel bad after i have chosen the latter. But still, i always choose it lol.

Have been doing 4 bm magazines cutouts continuously and im dying now. Another bm essay to go.
Have to finish it asap. I don't want to wake up early in the morning like 3am and start doing it like last sunday. I make me feel like a zombie the second day. :/

Addicted to Asian Wave recently some of them are really good in singing. Their performance is superb.

Okay so i gotto finish my last bm magazine cutout. Hell.

Birth

So i randomly created this blog since people are asking me for my blog link.

Hope that i will be updating always :)


Till then.